i think it's a pity that i'm spending most of the time when i'm awake to stay awake.

as much as i want to, i think i shld just not go for guit prac this sat and give myself a treat. sigh. auditions' in a week. and i'm worried abt it. like really. i haven't been able to prac for since dunno when. and it's so lame, like that time alto1 has 2 pple, the other is playing cembalo and i'm struggling and sounding stupid and making mistakes and playing like shit. like what's the point?

and maybe i shld just stop taking lessons as well.

sigh i dunno.

sometimes life is so ironic. looking at what happened in an overview, it's just so.. i dunno. unfair? dammit i shld go sleep.

till then.