ok not going to care abt the fact that this post is the 100th post.

it's kinda nice knowing that i'm finally performing as part of genus (or an 'artiste', as my security pass says) after watching them and feeling a strong urge to join even while in J1. ah but we'll be performing in the theatre instead of the huge hall. still that means there's a high chance of getting a full house or almost a full house which is a nice feeling.

somehow sitting on an unlit stage makes me kinda emo and think of sad stuff. recent sad memories that replayed in my mind -paused to facebook-

-unpause-

realised it's getting late and i should close facebook.

i like this pic cos i think it's prob the first pic of me in that pose. eating my sandwich and having the expression that says "hello i don't really care if u're taking a pic of me or not but hello anw. and btw i'm tired and hungry and i'm eating my sandwich."

or it could also say "go away and let me eat my sandwich in peace. CAN'T U SEE I'M EATING MY SANDWICH?"

actually i forgot what i was thinking then.

but anw back to the being emo thing on while listening to group items. well i thought about how i felt during the last concert (sch concert that is) i've had. how hard it is to pretend i'm feeling something when i'm feeling something else and pretending not to care and everything. yeah.

and thinking about (actually thought about this before recently) how one night i got a particular msg and because of a few letters (few as in less than 10) i couldn't sleep. like yeah really couldn't sleep. like heart pounding couldn't sleep kinda feeling. still bugs me now and then, but perhaps i'm just reading too much into it (no this is before i attended writing module).

but yeah anw it's getting late so i better sleep otherwise instead of closing my eyse and thinking abt stuff during group items tmr i might just close my eyes and fall asleep.

lemme end the 100th post with lyrics.

Why does the sun go on shining
Why does the sea rush to shore
Don't they know it's the end of the world
'Cause you don't love me any more

Why do the birds go on singing
Why do the stars glow above
Don't they know it's the end of the world
It ended when I lost your love

I wake up in the morning and I wonder
Why everything's the same as it was
I can't understand, no, I can't understand
How life goes on the way it does

Why does my heart go on beating
Why do these eyes of mine cry
Don't they know it's the end of the world
It ended when you said goodbye

Why does my heart go on beating
Why do these eyes of mine cry
Don't they know it's the end of the world
It ended when you said goodbye

i shld just post the song as well.

anw when played on guitar (the group item) it sounds really nice.